I woke up one morning and I started flashing back on all the things that have happened in my life and I could not stop crying. Even as I write this, I’m trying to control the tears. I just can’t help but think that if certain things didn’t happen to me, my life may have turned out a different way.
I was molested as child, many times. From then till a few weeks ago, I never saw my body as a temple. With every relationship I entered, it became worse. My body became objectified by these men who claimed to love me. Nobody knew what was going on with me because all I did was plaster a smile on my face like the world was perfect. I just want someone who would love me for me and not for my body. Is that too much to ask for?
And then one day I was chatting with a friend and he told me he and his girlfriend had made up their minds not to engage in any physical activity till they get married. That gave me hope.
But that morning, I decided to take control of my life and I took an oath of celibacy. I decided to bring it here and help any other girl who is in the same situation as I am. So if you want to do this, and trust me it takes a lot of courage and grace, say the next few lines to yourself and mean it.
‘Dear God, you word says that I should glorify You with and in my body since I’m not my own, I was bought with the precious price of your son’s blood.
I desire to henceforth stay clean from any form of sexual immorality, I understand that without you I can do nothing, so I asked for your strength and grace to stay pure in this depraved world. Remind me that You are with me, that You’ve made a way of escape and that You have a greater plan for me in my hours of temptation.
In Jesus name, Amen
Let me just add that God is not angry with you. I used to think it would be impossible for God to still see me and love me as he used to. But God still loves me as he loves you. He’s never not in the mood for you. So just talk to him. He will make everything perfect as he is perfect.
‘Ladies, you’re the owner of your body. Don’t let any man do what you don’t want to be done to it’
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